Case of the Ex

I got my GCH CD yesterday afternoon. It's great! It was exactly what I needed because my ex showed up after I got off work.

I didn't even want to talk to him. We broke up about 6 months ago. I hadn't really thought about him too much since. I kind of hoped he had died. I'm not being mean, but I just wish he had gone away and there would never, ever possibly be a chance for me to ever see him again.

He's like some bad and embarrassing chapter of your (my) life. Imagine that you were afraid of closets and never walked in the one in your room and wanted the door taken off so nothing/no one could hide in it and your brother mentions it in front of your new roommate on your first day of college. Or even worse, as a kid you thought you were going to marry Lance Bass, but you've forgotten about it and an old, old friend brought it up while you're looking at magazine in Borders this week.

I was just really creeped out and upset. What did he want? I got all the closure I needed when we broke up. You can't step in the same river twice, so why try wading in it? The past is past, and I want no part in reliving it. The past informs the future, but it should never be the future.

I could never stand regret and nostalgia. They're the same coin, just different sides.